Do you ever have those days when you feel like you just can’t do anything right? I recently had something practically handed to me on a silver platter, TWICE. All I had to do was accept it and make it work, but I failed both times. I couldn’t bring it to fruition, and I don’t know why. I don’t think that it is possible for things to get much easier than it being handed to you, so why couldn’t I make it work? Why did I let it slip through my fingers, not once but twice? Is there something wrong with me? Why am I failing? Maybe I am not cut out for this like I thought. These are all the things that were running through my brain this morning when I learned that the second opportunity didn’t pan out. That was Satan talking. It was him trying to get in my head and make me doubt myself and God’s plan for my life. I know this in my heart, but it still didn’t stop the thoughts from coming. It didn’t stop me from beating myself up and second guessing every decision I have made. It didn’t stop the “what if’s” from coming.
I can tell you that Satan is good at his job. He knows what he is doing. If we aren’t careful, he can take over. He can overwhelm us with all this negativity and make us give up. I have seen it over and over in myself and in those around me. When you put your heart and soul into something and are constantly getting slapped in the face, it is hard to keep going. Who likes having the door slammed in your face over and over again? Satan can use it to wear you down. He will make you believe the lies if you aren’t careful. It is easy to call it quits when you convince yourself that you aren’t good enough, but that is when Satan wins. That is when he gets his way. Trust me, there have been numerous times in my life when I have let that happen. For years I believed the lies that he was feeding me. I lived my life never feeling confident, never believing in myself, never feeling worthy. I was miserable. It wasn’t until I realized that I had to simply be still that I came to see myself in a different light. I had to push out Satan’s voice and zoom in on God’s voice. I can only do that by being still and truly listening. It was when I started doing this regularly that I was able to distinguish between the lies and the truth.
I am not telling you that I tune out Satan’s voice all the time. If I did, I wouldn’t have had that brief conversation with myself this morning about what a failure I am for missing out on two incredible opportunities. What is different about me now from all those years before is that I don’t let those lies sink in and take root. I don’t let them affect my decisions and actions going forward. When I catch myself letting them creep in, I stop completely and tune out everything around me. I consciously push that voice aside and listen to the only one that matters. That is when I start to hear that I am worthy. It is when I start to see the path laid out before me may not be an easy one, but it is the one I was called to follow. That is when I start to see those failures as lessons and opportunities for growth. It’s not easy, and I don’t expect that it ever will be because Satan will always be there putting those negative thoughts in my head. Just this morning I had to keep shutting those voices down. I will admit that it took me a few minutes to truly be all in this morning and tune out the negativity. I am human. Once I did, though, all the thoughts of failure faded away. Only one voice matters. It isn’t your voice, it isn’t mine, it isn’t Satan’s. It is pure and simple. The only voice that matters is God’s. I think we all have to learn that the hard way, and it is a lesson that we need reminding over and over, but it is one of the most important lessons of our lives.
Don’t let yourself be overrun by those negative thoughts. Don’t let them take root inside you and allow you to feel less than you are. Don’t give them power over you or the authority to rule your choices. Don’t allow them to give you permission to quit. Be still and let the only voice that matters wash over you. Allow it the space to come in and change you. Only then will you know the truth about yourself. You are worthy! You aren’t a failure! You are on the right path.
Anchored and Still,