I was a totally book nerd this month and read 4 books! That’s a lot for one month for me. I usually do good to get through one and maybe halfway through a second with my crazy schedule, so I am pretty proud of myself. It really boiled down to interest. As you all know, I really love historical fiction, and I got stuck on a historical fiction series that I was really enjoying. I wanted to finish all three books in the series before I started my book club pick for this month. It was a series by Pam Jenoff, who also wrote The Orphan’s Tale, which was my book club pick last September. I really enjoyed that book, so when I saw she had a series; I knew I had to read it. It was initially a 2-book series, but then she released a prequel book to the series making it 3 books total. I was uncertain whether or not to start with the prequel or start with book 1 as she wrote them. I decided to go with the order in which she wrote them and read the prequel last, which I think was the right decision for me. The books are entitled The Kommandant’s Girl (Book 1), The Diplomat’s Wife (Book 2), and The Ambassador’s Daughter (Book 0.5). If you are a fan of historical fiction, particularly books that take place during World War I and II, this is a great series. I love that each book could also be a stand-alone title too. While some characters overlap, each book has different main characters. Anyway, I highly recommend this series as I really enjoyed all three books.
Now onto my actual pick for August, My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell. This was Russell’s debut novel, and it became an instant New York Times Best Seller. I knew from the beginning that this pick might be a little controversial or at least make some people uncomfortable. It is a sensitive topic. Although not based on a true story, this novel seems like it has been ripped right from the news headlines of the past few years as part of the “Me Too” Movement. I will admit that it was a little more graphic than I was comfortable with at times and hard to read at some points. I understand the need for it, though, to get the full scope of what was going on and a better understanding of the psychological aspect of it. The book should definitely come with a warning as the topic could trigger some very negative feelings for anyone that may have experienced something similar. Having daughters near the ages of the main character at the time her abuse began really sent my mind into some dark places as fears about them began to creep in. Just be aware of the sensitive and graphic nature of this book before you jump into it.
This story rotates back and forth between the past and the present as a way to show how the events of the main character’s childhood trauma occurred and the impact that trauma left on her for years and years to come. As a self-conscious, naïve, 15-year-old student away at a boarding school, Vanessa had become a loaner after a fallout with her best friend and former roommate the previous year. This left her vulnerable to the eyes of her 42-year-old English teacher, Jacob Strane. He prayed on her vulnerability, her curiosity, and her need to feel desired and wanted by another human being. This was a classic case of grooming as he used her vulnerabilities and insecurities to make her feel like what they were doing was totally normal. He played on her interests in poetry and literature by initially complimenting her on her writing and giving her provocative books to read that glorified adult/child intimate relationships. He made her desire him in ways that never should occur at that age. He singled her out and made her feel special and desired. Vanessa as an adult said, “to be groomed is to be loved and handled like a precious, delicate thing,” and that is exactly how he treated her. He manipulated her into thinking it was all her fault that he was the way he was with her. SHE was the one that chased after him. SHE was the one that was willing. SHE made it hard for him to resist. He told her, “I never would have done it if you weren’t so willing.” He also made it very clear to her what the consequences would be if she ever told anyone what they did together. He told her he would be ruined. He said he would be fired, and she would get kicked out of school. He told her he would end up in jail and she would end up in foster care. He even told her she would never graduate or go to college. Her response was always, “I’d die before I tell,” and she really meant it. The way he manipulated her psychologically was beyond comprehension for me. It sickens me to think that things like this happen all the time in real life and that these men can get away with what they are doing to these children. The ways in which he continued to manipulate her far into her adulthood was just incredible, and the hold he had on her was unreal. It left her totally broken and damaged. She was so messed up that she moved from job to job as an adult doing menial administrative work that had nothing to do with her degree or interests. She coped by abusing drugs and alcohol and lived a life of misery with a skewed view of what a relationship should look like. It truly was a sad situation.
I do think this was a very well written story that really showed how easily children can be manipulated and taken advantage of. The psychological aspect of it was truly fascinating to me and so well done by Russell. I could really visualize how everything that Strane did and said to Vanessa affected her every thought and action. He knew exactly what he was doing and every single thing he did was calculated. It is an extremely hard topic and, as I said, could be very difficult for some people to read. It is hard for me to say that I would recommend this story to anyone because I do think there are people that likely shouldn’t read it. I guess I would say that I recommend it with conditions. You have to be well aware of what the story is about going into and be prepared for the graphic nature of some of it. It is a very dark story. I am glad that I read it, and I think that it gave me a lot to think about, especially when it comes to talking with my own daughters about sensitive things like this topic. If you feel like you can handle this topic, I think it is a very well written story that truly captures what it is like for so many children who are taken advantage of and abused both physically and mentally. Just know that I warned you before you jump into it.
My next pick is, hopefully, a much lighter read. For September, my choice is The New Wilderness by Diane Cook. It is a story about a young girl who is slowly dying from the pollution of an over-populated city life. Her mother is willing to do whatever it takes to save her and agrees to move to the Wilderness State, the only untouched, protected land where no one was allowed to inhabit until now. It is to be a sort of an experiment to see if they can survive in nature without destroying it. Here is what Publishers Weekly had to say about this novel.
“In this wry, speculative debut novel (after the collection Man v. Nature), Cook envisions a crowded and polluted near future in which only one natural area remains, the Wilderness State. Twenty people volunteer for a government experiment in how humans fare in the wilderness. It’s been so long since anyone tried that no one remembers. Among the volunteers are Glen, ‘an important person’ at the university; his wife Bea; and Bea’s daughter, Agnes, and they, along with the others, collectively called “The Community,” learn to eke out a precarious existence hunting with bows and arrows, tanning animal hides, and negotiating dangerous terrain. As the years pass unmarked other than with Bea noticing a fourth annual appearance of violet blossoms, the volunteers gradually abandon their communities to the study, though they remain expected to obey rules enforced by Rangers, never stay in one place longer than seven days, never leave a trace as members die off. More waitlisted refugees, called Newcomers, arrive from the city, and Bea perseveres, driven by hope for Agnes’s future. Cook powerfully describes the Community members’ transformation from city folk to primal beings, as they become fierce, cunning, and relentless in their struggle for survival and freedom, such as when Bea faces off with a mother coyote. Cook’s unsettling, darkly humorous take explores maternal love and man’s disdain for nature with impressive results.”
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