I am seriously struggling to think of things to write about these days. We have been doing this quarantining/social distancing thing for 6 weeks now, which means my life has been pretty boring. Don’t get me wrong, I have enjoyed the slow pace for the most part. It is certainly something that we needed, and I hope we don’t go back to the insanely busy schedule we had before this all started. There have definitely been those days when I have gone crazy from it all, though. There is only so much binge watching, reading, and cooking that I can do before it becomes monotonous. I have only left the house to make quick runs to the store for groceries, and there certainly isn’t anything exciting about that. Everyone is wearing masks and trying to avoid others as they hurry down the aisles to get what they need and get out as fast as possible. I need more to do than just the hectic run to the store. Today I am daydreaming about all the things I want to do when this is all over.
I have decided that the first thing I want to do is to spend endless hours strolling through Target without my family. It is my favorite store after all, and I think I am having Target withdrawal. I also love my family, but I really need some me time right about now. Oh, how I long to try on new clothes and shoes and peruse through the home section. Scrolling through things on their website just isn’t working for me anymore. I need the real live thing. I need to touch and feel things at the store (without gloves on). I honestly don’t even need to buy anything (although we all know that I will), I just want to look.
The second thing I am longing to do is something that most women are dying for about now. I can’t wait until I can go to the salon and get my hair done. That is another thing I need for a little me time. It has only been about 7 weeks (thankfully I went just before everything shut down), but with how fast my hair grows and how thick it is, I need a hair cut fiercely. Trust me when I say, I lose weight when I get my hair done. That is how much hair I have! Let’s not even talk about the grey hairs that are starting to show too. Oh, how I long to have someone else wash my hair and massage my head. There is no feeling better than getting your hair done. It makes me feel so good and refreshed each time.
The third thing I want to do is to go on a date night with my husband out to eat at a restaurant. At this point, I don’t even care what restaurant it is as long it is not in my kitchen and I didn’t have to cook it. Since we moved here almost 2 years ago, we have been having a weekly date night while the girls are both at practice. Before the quarantine, it was pretty much the only time we actually had time to really talk to each other. I looked forward to it every week. Now that we are home and he is only going to work every other day, we have tons of time to talk. My longing for a date night isn’t really about getting time to talk as much as it is about dedicating time for just us and getting to eat a meal I didn’t prepare. Oh, how I long to sit in a booth with just the two of us.
The final thing that I can’t wait for when this is all over is to see both of my girls getting to do the sports they love so much. I know that they both miss the discipline of it and the time with their friends. Their coaches and teammates are like their family because they spend so much time together, and they are really missing them all. Virtual workouts just aren’t the same. I love watching them both. I am amazed each time at all the things they can do. Oh, how I long to sit on hard benches and have my hearing damaged! I’m not sure I ever thought I would say that! LOL! I just miss watching them perform and seeing all of their hard work pay off.
Again, I do not long to be as busy as we used to be. I like that this has forced us to slow down and give our bodies and minds a much needed break. I love that we have gotten to spend time together that we were so lacking before. I want to have more time together as a family more consistently when this is over, but I do want to be able to do the things we love doing as well. I wish we could have the best of both worlds. Maybe we can. I pray that we can figure out how. Until then, I am enjoying what we have now and longing for the things we don’t.