Running on Fumes

Is there another word for extreme fatigue besides exhaustion? Exhaustion doesn’t quite cover the feeling I have right now.  I am definitely feeling more than exhaustion.  I can’t really think of a better word, though, because my brain isn’t firing on all cylinders. That’s only one part of it. I have a foggy brain; but I also have a headache, body aches, puffy eyes, scratchy voice (which I always have when I’m overly tired), and a feeling like I could sleep for days.  No, I am not sick or coming down with anything.  I am just completely worn out, exhausted, drained, weary, fatigued, spent, and whatever other word you can come up with. I am all of it.  I knew this was coming, yet there was no way to prepare for it.  It comes this time every year to some extent, but this year seems to be worse than usual.  As soon as we rang in the new year, life got crazy. We have something happening every weekend for 10 straight weeks. We have one weekend off near the end of March and then we go for 3 more weeks.   We have only made it through 4 of those 13 weeks and I already don’t know how I am going to make it the rest of the way through.  We even have 4 events this weekend alone.  There are no days off. There is no break, and the light at the end of the tunnel is very dim.  I know that we signed up for this and that we knew what we were getting into, but that doesn’t make it any easier on my body or my mind.  It is a full-time job just trying to keep up with it all.  

My intent with this is not really to complain.  I promise it’s not. It is merely to state the facts of how I am feeling because I know there are many of you out there that know the exact feeling I have right now.  You are worn down to your core. You don’t think you can take another step forward.  It’s called being a mom.  It is doing everything that you can for your kids and family to the detriment of yourself. You are running out of gas and there are no gas stations for hundreds of miles to fill you up. You just keep running on fumes, praying that you don’t get stranded.  I know you have all been there at one time or another.  Some of you are there with me right now.  Sadly, there is no advice I can give you except to keep pushing through.  Keep your foot on the gas but coast every chance you get to conserve fuel.  If you can schedule a 20-minute power nap in your day somewhere, do it.  If you have 5 minutes free, shut yourself in the bathroom (or closet like me) and just focus on breathing.   If your friend invites you for coffee but you have dishes or laundry to do, leave it and go.  It will still be there when you get back.  Try to eat healthy and drink plenty of water, but if you need to run through that fast food drive-thru line so you don’t have to cook one night, do it.  It’s ok.  I tell you this like it is all easy to do when I know that it isn’t, but I do know that you have to find bits of fuel somewhere along the way. If you don’t, you will eventually run out of gas, and none of us can afford for that to happen.  You have to conserve where you can and find a gas station every few miles even if you just get a gallon at a time. Find ways to take time for yourself and fuel up. You can do it!

Anchored,

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