What a week this has been. I either want a do-over or for it to just simply be over. The whole mess with Facebook and Instagram has about sent me over the edge. It is so unbelievably FRUSTRATING because I am totally helpless in the matter. There is NOTHING I can do to fix it, to get back all the contact that they deleted, or rectify the situation because I can only talk to robots, who just give automated and generic answers. I’m not going to write a whole post on this again, but just know that I am still angry and very FRUSTRATED.
To add to the disaster that is this week, my oldest has some ear issues. For some reason her left ear doesn’t work properly. She always feels like that ear is plugged and can’t hear as well out of that ear. He ear doesn’t drain properly and it gets a HUGE buildup of wax and has to literally be flushed out by the doctor pretty much every 3 months. It’s really gross to see what comes out of her ear every time they do it. In addition to the wax build up, she somehow gets swimmer’s ear constantly even though she hasn’t been swimming in months. I know this is gross, but I can actually see the crazy amount of puss that is in her ear right now. It’s disgusting. (I actually have a picture of it but she has forbidden me to share it. LOL) Her doctor has finally decided that none of this is normal and that she should see an ENT. I tried calling them yesterday to make an appointment because her doctor wants them to see her ear while it is infected, but I kept getting put on hold forever only to have to leave a message. No one ever called me back. Again, I am FRUSTRATED.
We are in the process of painting the kitchen cabinets in our new house because I hated the wood color that they were originally, and it really wasn’t going to look good with the new, darker floor. Anyway, my husband sent me to the store on Tuesday to get a gallon of the paint in the color/finish I wanted because he was almost done with priming. I get there and the lady doesn’t really seem to know what she is doing and tells me that she can’t find the paint. Okay, whatever, I’ll come back. I went back yesterday and there was a guy there. He actually seemed to know what he was doing and tells me, “No problem.” A few minutes later he comes back and tells me that don’t have the paint. Are you kidding me? He says they only have it in these really small cans. FRUSTRATION is setting in yet again. Now I have to choose a different finish. All I wanted was white, satin-finish paint, the most basic of all! Now I have to settle for white semi-gloss paint. It’s fine! I can live with it, but it’s not what I really wanted. We are really trying to get it all done before the floor guys come in on Monday to start refinishing the hardwood. There really isn’t time to go somewhere else to find the paint I want. We don’t want to take any chances in spilling oil-based paint on the new floors, so it needs to be done now.
Today I am supposed to be at the new house again while some different floor people come to measure the room in the basement that will be my office. Of course they give us a timeframe of 8:00-5:00. How FRUSTRATING is that? Why do service people do that? They know their schedule, they can certainly give us a shorter window than 9 hours! No one has time to sit and wait for that long. I certainly don’t. Well, it is 8:10 and I am not there. It is POURING outside! My daughter usually walks to school, but my mama heart will not let me leave and force her to walk in the rain. She doesn’t have to be at school until 9:00, so I am just praying that they don’t show up at the house before I can get there or that they will at least call me when they are on the way.
There have been a lot of other little things (changes to an order, a party not going as well as planned, practice going over by 20 minutes when I have other stuff to do and it’s already late, a missing order, a friend sharing some tough news, etc.) that have FRUSTRATED me this week as well, but I want go into all of those details for your sake. The actual definition of the word frustration is “the feeling of being upset or annoyed, especially because of the inability to change or achieve something.” I think that is exactly what has me feeling down…the inability to change any of it. I’m a fixer. I like to fix things and get them done, but I can’t seem to fix anything this week. I hate uncertainty. I hate the unknown. I know it all may seem small to you, but added all together, it has me wanting to just erase this week and for it to be over. I don’t think the dreary, rainy day is helping either. I apologize for another downer post. It has just been one of those weeks. I told you all I was always going to be honest and this is reality for me this week. It sucks! Sometimes these kinds of weeks just happen. It happens to us all. If it doesn’t, you aren’t human! I said on Tuesday that I was trying to smile through it. Well, I will admit that I was trying (I AM trying), but I am not succeeding. I’m just done. D.O.N.E. There is no other word for it. Let me just go to bed, wake up in the morning, and everything be back to normal. Please? Is that too much to ask?
Anchored, Frustrated, and DONE,